Wednesday, December 8, 2010

According To Mr. Strickland


Courtesy of my Google search for "Mr. Strickland" & "Slacker"
I am a Slacker.

Just like the high school principal from Back to the Future saw it, when it came to Marty and George McFly.

Call it slacking. Burnout. Laziness. Or my own interpretation of a vacation in pretty much the only way I'll ever be able to know one.

The array of names all translate to the same style of self-care in my D-Life these days. Lately, I've been the Slacker in Charge as far as my diabetes management. I am nose-to-nose with being a slacker.

Not testing as regularly. Eating carbs without dosing for them. Like those bags of peanuts, or handfuls of Vanilla Wafers, or just a pack of crackers. I was hungry, and just didn't care. Just like not uploading my pump data to the laptop, or writing blogs or participating in the Diabetes Online Community as much.

And I'm OK with this, for the most part.

Slacking can be like a vacation of the mind, for us People With Diabetes.

Between the end of the year activity, financial struggles, work and life stress, and hanging out with some none D-friends recently who felt the need to bash my D-nerdiness on various levels... I've felt relatively burnt out and have just resorted to slacking.

The One Touch Ultra Link shows my 7-day average is 206, while the 14-day average is 183 and 30-day average is 162. Obviously, I've been runner higher more recently. Hopefully, not to the extent that it'll damage my hopes of a lower A1c come Christmas week. But we'll see.

You know what? I just don't care right now. It is what it is. I'm generally frustrated with life and people and pretty much the world. And not in a good mood, as we move into the Christmas season. I have just needed a break. A vacation so to speak.
 
We all get to that point. It is what it is. Hopefully, it doesn't last too long. Soon, Mr. Strickland won't have much to hang on me as far as slacker-ness. I'll be a new and improved, re-energized Person With Diabetes.
 
Just like George McFly. History is gonna change. Or this D-Future, that is.

5 comments:

Type1RockStar said...

sometimes i feel like i need a break to! People just don't get it and there horrified but sometimes i just need to stop everything and readjust, maybe do something i don't do normally just so i can feel normal.

Reyna said...

Mike,

I don't know what it is like to be a PWD...nor even a Type 3 for the length of time you have been enduring the rigorous management that Type 1 requires. I can only imagine through my limited experience of attempting to be Joe's inefficient pancreas that it can be exhausting, overwhelming, and at times consuming.

I think a break here and there is a good thing...It looks like you have a healthy attitude about it. You know you will get back on the saddle soon. You have a lot on your plate just living life, let alone having "d" thrown into the mix.

Hang in there.

Sysy said...

I like what Reyna said...

All I can say is I feel similar...I do every year around December. It's too cold, people's focus is based on buying things, and the twins are in a serious tantrum stage. I'll bet it's comparable living with two tiger cubs. lol Just like diabetes is comparable to living on one's own in the jungle. See there I go again, been watching far too much Jungle Book...

You'll get back on faster than you think (because by talking about it you're already heading in that direction my friend)

Jonah said...

Sometimes I need a day away from diabetes, so I don't eat for the day.
Other than that, no advice. Sorry.

Richard said...

I was diagnosed in 1945, when I was 6. The doctors did not give any advice except to stay away from sugar. My parents gave me anything I wanted, except sugar. It was that way for me until the 1980s, so I guess I can say I was slacking for 40 years, but I don't have to feel guilty. Hundreds of carbs every day, one shot of pork insulin, but no sugar. No complications either. Does anyone know why? I sure don't.

Starting around 1990 I turned things around and had much better control. I found out I was supposed to follow a low carb diet. With the first 40 years of my diabetes life being a slacker, without knowing it, I sure don't want to press my luck now. I am extremely careful now, and it will stay that way until I am departed.